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mental health music

Yellow ledbetter

Unsealed, on a porch a letter sat
Then you said, “I wanna leave it again”
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand
And on the sand I wanna leave her againOn a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah
And they called and I said that I’ll go
And I said that I’ll call out again
And the reason I ought ta leave her calm, I know
I said, “I don’t know whether I’m the boxer or the bag”Oh yeah, can you see them, out on the porch?
Yeah, but they don’t wave
I see them ’round the front way, yeah
And I know, and I know I don’t wanna stayMake me cry

I see oh, I don’t know why there’s something else
I want to, wanna drum it all away
I said, “I don’t, I don’t know whether I was the boxer or the bag”Oh yeah, can you see them, out the on porch?
Yeah, but they don’t wave
I see them ’round the front way
And I know, and I know I don’t want to stay at all
I don’t want to stay
I don’t want to stay
I don’t want to stay
I don’t, I don’t want to stay

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mental health

Comatose

This is how I feel on diazepam. When I had them before, I was buzzing my tits off, this time its taking all of my effort just to keep my eyes open. I’m only on 2mg three times a day. They are helping to take the edge off of the cyclone in my head.

Yesterday I didnt really get out of bed. I wasn’t just laying there, I was sound asleep. Even when slightly awake I couldn’t tell if I actually was. The trouble is, I didnt wake up feeling refreshed. In fact I had to force myself to get up otherwise I would still be there now.

Today I didn’t get out of bed until 10:30 and even that was a struggle. I could have stayed there all day again.

I did have some motivation. I had a twitter conversation with a lady last night in America. She is going to host one of my blogs on her site. I will let you know the details when it is live. Just to pre warn you it is a raw account of a suicide attempt.

Also another lady in Canada is hosting my whole blog site for a month. Again I will let you know when this is live.

Finally my blog is gaining some traction. Hopefully it is helping people

Please don’t forget to like and share my site. Stay strong. Martin